I have not dropped off the face of the planet.
(That’s an odd saying. I wonder if it’s actually been around since people thought the earth was flat?)
I have no excuses, I just didn’t feel like I had much to say. But, I’m back with all my insight and wisdom. All of it. Really, I have insight.
Right now I am unemployed and living at my dad’s place. This, of course, doesn’t make me sound at all like a loser-bum. But really, it’s been fantastic. As M. says, “It’s like you’ve been given a home…rent-free. And that guy that walked in the door? That’s just the crazy old man who lives in the attic and stores 6 different varieties of mustard in the fridge.” You think she’s joking? Only slightly. He sometimes sleeps on his sailboat.
Actually, I’m getting very tired of being unemployed. I am looking somewhat actively, but The Welshman is having a hard time finding a job in advertising here in Canada, and the possibility of an upcoming move to England is looming ever closer. I’m beginning to think that might be just dandy. I love England, having visited a number of times when I was younger. I even lived there when I was a toddler, but my only memory of that is a field of purple flowers and a train. I still love trains -the old ones that go Chugga-chugga. Unbelievably relaxing. With nerves like mine? train-sound-induced relaxation is the equivalent of floating naked, and unobserved, under the stars, in the rivers of Venice. I have done this 5 or 6 times, you see.
Speaking of Venice. The cost of travel throughout Europe is frightfully cheap. (Ryanair anyone?) I’m in. And if it was this easy? I’d have moved years ago. Unfortunately, it’s not. Apparently there is a lot that goes into moving to a new country. Shocking, huh? I’m researching Visa possibilities right now, and there are a couple of options, not one of which is a sure thing. One semi-relief is that I have found a design school that offers online training. (read: I can move and not worry about how that will affect my education over the next year or so).
In big news? I think I’ve found my wedding gown! It’s beautiful, soft, elegant, delicate…just perfect. The multitude of uncertainties for the next year may mean that the wedding won’t happen as soon as we would like (July 1, 2008 is not as far away as it once was), but finding the dress is such a wonderful step that it makes the waiting nearly unbearable.
So much is on the verge of happening, and yet the last month has been a pathetic state of limbo. I guess it’s time to make some huge decisions. Changing the direction of my education and career goals drastically was both terrifying and exciting. I hate change, because it means letting go. But I’m certainly into adventure. Hypocrisy on a large scale has never seemed far from crazy in my book. I can live with crazy.
A move to England might be just the kind of crazy adventure I have always dreamed of. The Adventures of a Bahamian-Welshman’s Canadian Bride in England? Why not? I was born to be an expat.
edited to add:
My father, his girlfriend, and The Welshman’s parents got on better than I could have imagined. It was wonderful to have them come to Canada. Unfortunately the weather that weekend wasn’t great, so we were all a little cold wandering through the streets of Halifax, but they enjoyed their visit. I hope they’ll be able to come here again sometime and see that summer in Canada isn’t freezing cold (I got a terrible sunburn two days ago. ouch). Aside from a suspiciously positive comment about Margaret Thatcher, The Welshman’s uber conservative parents didn’t frighten my liberal Dad too much. And he only twitched a little. All in all it was a fantastic weekend, and to top it off, some of the most important people in my life have graduated and are moving on to the first phases of their new lives.
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